Well what can one say to the death of a father and brilliant singer and talent? It depends on one’s understanding on the determent of abuse as a young lad. Innocent, the right to grow up free was stolen. Crimes that haunted his grave well before the end. You see Chester lost his innocents and life many years ago. When the monster came out form under his bed, the rest need not be said.
The truth is Chester should have die well before his 19th birthday, ether by drug over dose or suicide. The reason why? Chester fought his mind, but it fought back and fail to take him (and it would have try) his found a voice and a band. Then bothers and now a fucking huge ass family in all of his fans.
What went so wrong? I have no doubt Chester would have self distracted and his was his own worst enemy, he was not private about it. That is not Chester fault, its the monster that was in his bed now invade his mind.
What drown humans to Chester is his voice all could relate in same way, this go’s for me as well.
Chester used all of the bad shit in his mind and abuse mix it with his imagination thus fuel his creative engine his voice and unleashed it. But in doing so little by little he was losing control of the apparatus he built to cope and deal with the shit in his young life. The darkness set in. In a way Chester used alcohol and drugs to quite the apparatus he built. That was not enough and made thing so much worst all it took was a friend a human dear to his heart to take his own life. Chester fate all but sealed.
Ever album Chester work on and all the moment he used his voice was bring him closer to the end. In other words Chester was risking his own life and paid the sad price.
This is where it hit home for me. I take the same risks in my work as Chester and I must be careful not to push to far. I have been abused and witness to much suffering while I was in state care, so young I and they where.
Right now I’m in the 3rd year of a legal fight for justice, this span over 13 years to get this far.
Chester is a good man, and a dark knight, fighting a war far to large for his mind, soul and heart to cope.
I end with this, some night I can not sleep I still hear the screams form girls as young as 12 been rape by humans paid to care form them. The fuck up thing is, they where there because of abuse it was meant to be safe.
Thank you Chester and LP go forth in to the light Dark Knight.
Dark knight Alex Gordon
